On the Rocks

Pour me glass of vulnerability

*warning: you’re gonna hear the real me

It feels better than you feeling me

We'd be in the moment but did you really see me

Let's talk about what you “deserve”

Wise chose of a word

I'm typically careful w myself

Afraid of things as such going left

Afraid of being more than the other

So I release my voice & hide under the covers

I release the urge to feel loved

I let go of an earthly being able to accept me

Maybe I just that unique

Maybe I'm only enough for me

My crooked confidence stems from a painful reminder

I overread that chapter, highlighted in my binder

of memories, good & bad tendencies

does anyone really know when they’ve seen the best of me?

I died slowly that day

Every ounce of who I fought to maintain

Got washed away w a harsh rain

Then the same rain never leaves

It just chooses when to entertain me

Or let me live

Not kill my vibe

Lord knows I’ve got my own words, check the confessions, it’s more than five

but I’m not one to fall & stay down, I chose to rise

So I rewrite the narrative

Put myself in a position of power

Not Father Time but I control the hours

Didn't care for my taste when I was sweet, try me now I’m sour

Act tough? let me list reasons, i’ve got enough

It's been on my chest

Only simple conversation is sex

& that’s not even me at my best

I'm so much more complex

Ask the right questions next episode

You'll move on, what’s next

Slightly in my bag

Slightly trying not to stay sad

Cause that’s my “act” showing her ass

Gimme 5 good reasons not to throw her this cash

So close but yet very far

I wished a million times on the same star

I could cut deeper but i’m not a fan of scars

You've already won, I exposed my heart

Cut the lights, i prefer the dark already won,I exposed my heart

Cut the lights, I prefer the dark

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